REVERSE thinspo

sometimes you only lose motivation when looking on skinny people. so here is a reminder! stick to your diet or you will end up looking like these people!
fat doesnt turn ANYONE on... sorry hun ):


(!!!!)  (a bit out of place, but i find it true)

abc diet

ABC diet= Ana Boot Camp diet

I am going to start on the abc diet the up coming monday. and why? because i know it actually Works! if you do a mono diet, you will gain what you lost very fast. or, thats what most people do at least...( they also dont Work for me.)  and on a mono diet you will be hungry pretty much all the time. and you are only allowed to eat the same Again and Again..it gets a bit boring really ):
i dont recommend them.




this is the plan that i will follow.


stay strong. stay in control.
you can do this.

the past few days and hair tips

Christmas eve was awful. i argued with my dad, and he argued with my sis and i. its always like that on "special days" like Christmas or birthdays. maybe thats why  despite them?
i have eaten far too much, but it will be better when i go back to school.
i forced myself to eat 4 and a half celery Sticks today. this sunday i will go to the swimhall. i hate going there, but i need to burn some calories.
tomorrow its new year. it wont be anything special. we will eat dinner together. drink a glass of champagne. Watch a movie, then my dad and sis will go out to Watch the fireworks ( I dont like it. it scares me tbh. and its always so cold outside...) . then there is smoked salmon as a kind of "midnight treat." after that we will probably Watch a new movie and then i will go to bed.

it makes me crazy that i cant weigh myself, and my running shoes are at my school too... next time before i go home on weekend, i will remeber to pack it.
i have decided to take better care of my skin. i already care enough about my hair. a small tip for you: before you shower put mayo in your hair. let it sit for at least 15 min. and then shower like you always do. it will make your hair sooooo soft AND shiny! i can totally recommend it! and if you want to be really nice to your hair, put coconut oil in it. leave it in overnight and then wash it out in the morning. it helps against split ends and dry hair (:

i have found my celebrity crush! kate moss! have you seen her?! i would KILL for a look like hers! seriously! oh my... what a beauty she is! Look!
 
isnt she just...perfect?!

alone/ website:seven cups of tea

i feel so alone. my sisters roomie hates me so i dont like to visit them. i dont feel welome because of it. but i dont really have anyone to talk to apart from my sister. her roomie made her agree that they would spend time alone together every Tuesday and thursday. so i am all alone those days.
just sitting around on my own isnt good for me. it kinda triggers bad thoughts and sadness.
i ut want togo ome so i can get my cigarettes!
two of my latest cuts got infected and the infection wouldnt go away. it slowed Down the healing process  A LOT, but they are luckily fine now.
i eat more than i should, but eating is so comforting, and time consuming.
a teacher told me that its nice to see that i have become so "well-balanced." oh yeah i am so well-balanced i still cut. yes i am completly fine. dont you worry (:
hah  people are so hilarious without even knowing




if you feel like you need someone to talk to, about anything, i think you should visit the website called seven cups of tea. it really helped me. you can choose by yourself who you talk to. the so called "listeners" have a profile you can check out.
its a bit difficult to explain but i think you should try  it out (:

Links: BMI calculator/calorie counter

link to BMI calculator:
http://www.bmi-calculator.net/

Link to calorie counter ( this one should be ok I think (: I use one in my native language so I can't really know. )
http://www.caloriecount.com/calories-fruits-fruit-juices-ic0900

motivating quotes/ana commandments/pledge

Sometimes is all you need a quote to keep you on the right path (:
-i didn't make them up myself-
- Skip dinner, wake up thinner!
- What I eat in private, is what I wear in public
- Thinner is the winner
-Hunger hurts, but starving it Works ( it's from Fiona Apples song "paperbag." This quote is taken out of context!)
- calories kill
- Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels (- Kate Moss)
- Starvation is life, life is tough
- Salvation through starvation
and now to my fav: I believe in salvation through trying a bit harder than I did yesterday.




Quotes on Bulimia:

-I mean, we all know the dangers of starving, but bulimia? That can't be that bad. It's only bad when you get really thin. Who worries about bulimics? They're just gross.
- Marya Hornbacher ( please notice the sarcasm! Marya was bulimic herself)
- You know you have got problems when your head is hanging over the toilet, puking up your dinner, and what you are thinking of is your dad. And how he thinks you are not pretty.
-  Teresa Lo

-The stuffing/puking/stuffing/puking/stuffing/puking didn't make her skinny, it made her cry
- Laurie Halse Anderson, Wintergirls

-Some people who are obsessed with food become gourmet chefs. Others become eating disorders.
- Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

-My bulimia was my addiction. Hurting myself was my addiction... The music is what saved me. That's the only thing I can trust.
- Nicole Scherzinger




Anas 10 Commandments1. If you aren't thin, you aren't attractive
2. Being thin is more important than being healthy
3. You must buy clothes style your hair, take laxatives*, starve yourself, do anything to look thinner
4. Thou shall not eat without feeling guilty
5. Thou shall not eat fattening food without punishing oneself afterwards
6. Thou shall Count calories and restrict intake accordingly
7. What the scale says is the most important thing
8. Losing weight is good; gaining weight is bad
9. You can never be too thin
10. Being thin and not eating are signs of true will-power and success

* DON'T take laxatives in order to lose weight! It doesn't Work. The only weight you will lose is water weight!




Pledge
I believe in control, the only force mighty enough to bring order to the Chaos that is my World.
I believe that I am the most vile, worthless and useless person ever to have existed on this planet and that I am totally unworthy of anyones time and attention.
I believe that people who tell me differently must be idiots. If they could see how I really am they would hate me almost as much as I do.
I believe in oughts, musts and shoulds as unbreakable Laws to determine my daily behavior.
I believe in perfection and strive to attain it.
I believe in salvation through trying a bit harder than I did yesterday.
I believe in calorie counters as the inspired Word of God and memorize them accordingly.
I believe in bathroom scales as an indicator of my daily successes and failures.
I believe in hell. Because I think that I am sometimes living in it.
 I believe in a wholly Black and White World, the losing of weight, recrimination for sins, the abnegation of the body and a life ever fasting.

update

Ugh.. I wish I could just skip christmas.
Yesterday I binged on some cookies just to get rid of them
. Do any  you do the same?
 I didn't really gain so that's good.
I drink a lot of green tea and try to only eat apples and Salad.
Green tea should be very good for your metabolism...
I haven't posted in a while because I have been busy  doing tests.
I would like to go outside and run. But it's storming and raining.
I can do some excesises in my room without anyone seeing it.
My roomie is never there in the weekends.

I never leave my goals  out of sight. I carry them in my Heart, always.
 I know what I want. And I can do it.
And so can you.
Stay strong, lovelies xoxo