coaching

i have got a coach! and the person seems all right. its so hard to find a proper one... most of them are useless.
i started on the abc diet for the 17th time. and its going amazing this far!
i printed some inspirational Pictures and put them in my weightloss diary. i hope i will keep feeling so optimistic about this! right now, i really fell like i can do it!
but in return my fear of gaining has intensified. i cant go to sleep feeling"full".
i went for two long walks today. each one lasted about 45min.
what shall i say to my dad o stop him from buying unhealthy Things? "oh i cant eat that dad! its almost summer!" or should i rather tell him, it would be better if we saved the Money for our Holiday??? we have talked about going to Ireland, Australia or America eiter this or the NeXT year.  i am so excited! but also terrified. my arms are totally covered in scars. he hasnt seen me in a tshirt since i started selfharming.. and he keeps comenting on the scars he does see... like "ohh that looks so bad! and "look what you have done to yourself! it doesnt look nice, does i?" its  anoying and it makes me sad.